This week I learned something my gut has been trying to tell me for a long time. I learned the truth. As a conversation I was having with someone insued and we dove deeper into the painful, truthful waters, I felt myself stepping out of my body and begin looking at our conversation from a distance before stepping back inside my body and absorbing what I learned in real time. It really was surreal.
Has this happened to anyone else?
Let’s face it, as important as the truth is, and as much as it sets you free, you really have to come prepared for it. It can be ruthless.
I’m leaving you with one of my favorite surreal film clips below:
It’s not surreal, it’s the truth
Neve Black
Wow, truth and a hot lesbian scene–who could ask for more?
But seriously, Neve, I actually have experienced something like you describe, except for me there was an additional surreal quality in that I wasn’t really observing myself, I was transported to the top of a mountain and it was all windy and desolate and I was alone, even though my body was with this particular person. So the “truth” was presented in metaphorical terms. Although I don’t remember all that much about the relationship, I have a crystal clear memory of those seconds on the mountaintop and that was the truth of the relationship.
Yep, the truth can be pretty ruthless, but I’d say in the end, I’ve never regretted going for it, painful as it has been.
You’re such a strong person, and it will make you stronger. Not that I really have any clue what I’m talking about in terms of specifics, but somehow I feel you’ve given us a broader view of it :-).
My fellow goddess, Neve,
(yes, you read that right!)
This one is for you and for me: Like the saying goes, listen to the whispers or you will hear the screams. When we listen to our gut…it speaks volumes. and sometimes we just cover our ears and our eyes because we want to believe and we want to trust. I am good at talking myself into circles. It goes right along with rowing a boat with one oar. Of course, you could (and sometimes should) grab that oar and smack me up side the head with it!
On a more positive note:
What if what’s going on right now in your life is the greatest gift you could have ever imagined, however there is no way for you to know it for at least 3,6, 12 or 36 months from now?
What if the heat of your situation is what is needed to hatch your dream?
What if ‘this’ hatches a passion within you that under any other circumstances you couldn’t have seen let alone embraced?
What if ‘this’ was is a game you play with yourself?
What if this become your best way to let go of what you no longer needed?
What if this is all a lesson in learning to trust yourself?
What if all this is simply to have you see what really matters?
What if this is your wake up call?
And what if you woke up? What would you be waking up from? What would you be awakening into?
What if in truth this is a precious jewel wrapped in crap? Would you be willing to take the chance of getting your hands a little dirty in order to really find and recognize that jewel?
So, What if the sh*t is the gift that causes your shift?
Until next time, live with courage, Neve…
Namaste,
D
Hi Donna!
Thank you for saying you think I’m so strong. I am in some ways, but I really despise it when I find out I’ve been lied to. I feel foolish and cheated. It feels like a slap across the face, or a punch in the gut. Yeah, the wind was knocked out of my sails for a minute.
I’ve missed you.
Interesting that your surreal transportation took you completely away from the situation, like you mentioned metaphysically. I was hovering above the conversation; lookind down on it. Either way, without pulling out my psychology books and flipping over to the chapter on Frued, I think our brain’s are protecting our bodies from the nuclear explosion at hand. Yes, I know that sounds a tad dramatic, but really, you almost have to brace yourself for the truth.
And yes, as ruthless as the truth can be, it’s much better to be aware of it than and to face it than to hide from it.
Suffice to say, I’m making different choices in my life going forward. Choices that are healthier for me. I’m sure you did the same.
Dawn,
Thank you. Words to live by. Words that ring with truth.
Namaste
I’m also making different choices in my life going forward. Choices that are healthier for me.
Like you said “One in a million, baby.”
Dear One in a Million,
Good for you!